It's that time again. I'm less than a week away from packing up and hitting the road! I've been in New Jersey now for just over two months and it's been a deep immersion in all things family and old friends as I've waded through wave after wave of memories from my childhood, teenage years, early days of my marriage, being a mom through various ages and stages and also the unraveling of my marriage. I've been steeped in the messy soup of it...working to diffuse and heal parts and retrieve and release other parts. All the while, I've been deepening my spiritual listening, clearing space to make room for the Divine, my eternal connection to the whole.
I'm also making room for the new, the next, the unknown. This, of course, feels a bit easier when it's warm and sunny with long daylight hours. It's snowing as I write this, the first real snow I've seen in almost a year. Winter and it's cold, dark days urge us to withdraw from the world, retreat and hibernate, slowing our energy, regenerating our cells and our souls. So the very idea of moving, changing and traveling feels strangely counter intuitive, however, the place I'm headed in upstate NY will offer some respite from the world, because it is in a rural area and it is very cold. I'll be leaving behind cafes with lattes, Whole Foods and Trader Joe's, easy access to cultural activities, Meetup groups, networking events, etc. I'll be gaining some space and quiet so that I can spend time in meditation and contemplation, finish up some writing projects and set intentions for the coming year. All good.
Friends have asked me what's next after that. I tell them I don't really know, and I don't. I'm listening. The tracks ahead are unfolding as I move forward as though I'm creating them as I go. No plan. No agenda. No strategy. Just following my inner guidance and moving through the doors that open before me.
I do know that many part of my life are evolving into new frontiers which may result in some big changes in the coming months. I've hinted at some of these changes throughout this year and some are arising with a strong presence and energy, while others are in a neutral place with not much energy.
Timing is everything, especially Divine Timing. Thus, I await orders from the Divine as to my upcoming gigs and travels. One thing I can count on: it's never dull or boring.
More on all of this as it unfolds....in the meantime, I'm also busy preparing for my very first e-course! I've pulled together lots of inspiring and inquiring material. It's already evolving a lot since it was a Meetup and even since I first announced it last summer. I'm enjoying the research and seeing it come together. Looking forward to trying out the teleclass format during the course. I love the fact that this is a pilot program because it will be experimental, which means we'll all be learning what works and what doesn't.
It's a bit surreal for me to think that this time last year, I was living in Seattle and in the process of selling and giving away 90% of my stuff preparing for my January 2013 departure! Wow, did this year move fast! It's difficult to comprehend all of the places I've been and experiences I've had in the past 11 months...how far I've come and how different I feel from the brave woman who jumped into this life with both feet, knowing nothing and trusting all would be okay. Not that I'm not still brave, but more that all the experiences of that last year have made me a softer, more patient and flexible woman than I was then. My hard edges got smoothed down a bit and I flow a little more easily with change and living with people.
Wow...it's also interesting to note that I had no idea what to expect when I set out last January, and so many things have been really different than what I thought they'd be in good ways and not-so-good ways. But after all, that's what makes this lifestyle an adventure, isn't it?