I haven't written or posted anything in over two weeks. I've been in the midst of a number of changes in my way of traveling and it has taken all of my time and energy. They are big changes, requiring big leaps, big courage and BIG trust.
For some reason, I'm not afraid.
For some reason, I feel that I'm finally doing things the way I originally intended, which is to travel without a plan, without a net, without an agenda or expectations. I thought I was doing that, but I discovered that I wasn't.
For some reason, I'm feeling more myself, more clear and more safe than I have in months.
I've stepped outside the box, come out of the closet and broken out of the bubble that I was in all these months. I'm now raw, naked and exposed to whatever life offers up.
It feels amazing.
The past is gone. The future is unknown. There is only right now.
I have no idea what's going to unfold and that's okay. The past six months have forced me to drop most of my concepts about myself, about my life and about my travels. Doing so has freed me up on so many levels. It's as though I'm just beginning my journey. My travels since January have simply been to prepare me for this time.
In the past two weeks:
- I sold my little RV. While I enjoyed the experience of traveling and living this way for two months, it was overly stressful and not a good fit for my life at this time.
- I bought an AWD Supercharged Toyota Previa van. It's reliable, roomy and super comfortable on long drives. So happy to be back in a car!
- I parted ways with one of my traveling companions. He's been an incredible friend. Without his support and generosity, I would not have made it this far on this journey. We both discovered we need different things at this juncture, so we separated on good terms and our paths will surely cross again soon.
- I decided the best way to travel is to either stay with people I know OR rent rooms in houses full of people. My life and this journey is about community and not isolation. Living in the motor home, I found myself living in a bubble and cut off from people. Coming out of that has been energizing.
- My decision to start a blog series that shines a light on people living on the fringes has struck a chord and resonates with people. It has given me a missing piece of the puzzle that is connected with my original intention of finding new ways to create community because it is evidence that our current way of living isn't working. I'm inspired that this will eventually come full circle to the ways and means to truly build a lifestyle that works for people and planet.
Living as a nomad is an evolving ever-changing experience that keeps me on edge and aware that life is about growth and change. There is nothing to hold on to, most especially my concepts and attachment to "how it's supposed to be". Embracing the change keeps things flowing and moving forward without logjams and obstacles. I find when the going gets tough, I need to loosen my grasp, practice a little patience and breathe! Though it may not look like it at the time, it all somehow turns out right.
It really does.