Privacy is becoming the most important gift I could give myself now. My soul needs a bit of privacy, solitude and sacred space. I really need to land somewhere peaceful for a couple of months so I can make some headway on these beloved projects. It would also be great boon for my health to be in an environment that offers me easy access to healthy food, great places to walk and really good yoga.
This past year has taught me that living with people has many benefits, but it also causes a particular kind of stress that I call chaotic overwhelm or too much going on. Writers often need quiet to write or at the very least, some control over their environment, otherwise, they can agitated and the flow stops. In my case, I’m blessed to be able to write with a selection of music playing through my headphones. This blocks out noise just enough to create a snug container in which to spill organized words onto the page. It’s great for cafes. Unfortunately, in a home environment, it’s a bit rude to deliberately shut others out this way. When alone, I will play my music out into the room, but as I’ve discovered, not everyone likes my choice of music.
This has been the main reason I’ve done the majority of my writing in cafes for years now: I can be in my own world while being surrounded by people. Having not had my own space throughout much of my adult life, it is a blessing that I learned to cultivate café writing in this way. It’s made my nomadic way of living possible because I no longer expect to be able to work well in most of the places I live. But put me in a café with a hot beverage and I automatically click into creative or work mode. Born out of necessity, there have been exceptions to this, but for the most part my best work comes when I’m sitting in a café. I don’t even mind spending the money since I’m "renting" office space from the café owners who are gracious enough to let me reside in their space for hours for the price of a cup of coffee. Instead of seeing it as expensive, I see it as a bargain, considering how much I’ve actually gotten done over the years. Cafes make me prolific in a way that I cannot understand. Perhaps it’s because I’ve cultivated the habit of working there and now my Muse takes the smell of coffee as a cue to appear. Regardless of what it is, I absolutely love working that way.
However, with that said, having a sacred space is becoming increasingly important to me. After living and working around all kinds of energy, I've become intensely aware that spending time in a sacred space feeds my soul. To me sacred means clean, not just physically, but energetically. That comes from an intentional absence of electronic games, television, heavy or negative music and drama. Sacred also means the space feels like a sanctuary--it's quiet and peaceful as well as nurturing. Many yoga studios feel that way to me. Perhaps that is because the students speak quietly, focus inwardly and have a high level of respect for the space.
As a natural introvert, I thrive on solitude and lots of privacy. In this age of social media, transparency has become the norm and is expected. This has been a major challenge for me and my resistance to it has affected my business dramatically. I'm just not comfortable sharing and exposing many aspects of my life online. The whole realm of "selfies" doesn't resonate with me. Documenting every move I make feels unnatural and goes against some of my spiritual values which specifically direct me away from too much identification with the ego, personality and small self.
Here and there, I come out of my shell, but mostly I prefer to write and spend time with people in person. The online world is great for connecting with people on a large scale, but while it is broad, it doesn't have the depth I receive from creative projects or in person connections.
Perhaps it's time to slow down for a bit.
Perhaps it's time to stop moving for a while.
Perhaps it's time to regroup.
Perhaps it's time to return to what works.
I've been all the way across the U.S. and halfway back (I'm in Austin now) and I've paused to listen to my inner guidance. I don't know what's next, where I will go or how long I will stay. I DO know that something needs to shift. It might be my nomadic lifestyle. It might be my business model. It might be I just need to take some time to reflect.
The adventure continues. Lessons being learned. Evolution in process. Veils falling down rapidly. Curiosity about life's mysteries intact.
Onward we go...stay tuned! xoxo